Y'know, I have to admit, I thought long and hard before making this entry. I haven't seen or talked to Dustin in about 5 years, and admittedly, it wasn't on the best of terms. I wondered, would this be kind of 'creepy' to post it like this, after so much time has passed? I have no idea what he's doing, or who he's taken up with. I mean, I'm not trying to make anyone mad, or break up any happy homes. You've been on my mind lately, Dustin, and I can't help thinking back to happier times when we were both in college, and younger, and more naive, and I don't know about you but I definitely had more hope (for my future) back then.
I regret leaving the way I did, for what it's worth, if you're reading this; perhaps you've forgotten about it, but I haven't. See, someone else had come along and I had yet to find out just what a dead-end that turned out to be. Hopefully, you have not met the same fate. But I do remember you were one of the best friends I ever had, and it would do my heart good to see your face again!
There are two things I want really, really badly right now, strange though it may seem: a digital camera, and a vacuum cleaner. Well, it's one vacuum cleaner in particular. See, before my friend Janet moved away, she let me borrow her super-fine Kirby vacuum cleaner, and it was sooooo nice because it had all these attachments which made cleaning my upholstery a joy, let me tell you. The one I have my eye on is not a Kirby, but it has (almost) all the same attachments.
The digital camera, for obvious reasons, would be a heck of a lot more versatile than the vacuum cleaner, although not necessarily more fun. See, I am one of those people who actually enjoys cleaning. I spend hours in the cleaning products section of Target and Meijer -- it's your typical kid-in-a-candy-store syndrome. You would think this means my living space is spic and span. I'm here to tell you it's not. For some odd reason, my addiction to buying cleaning products is really more of a collector's-type hobby for me, than it is translation into pragmatic routine. Oh I do use them, don't get me wrong. I think it has more to do with the satisfaction of making the purchase and knowing I actually have the products to produce a clean household, than it is actual labor spent in cleaning.
I mean, I really do clean. Just not as often as you'd think, given how much time and space I've now devoted to writing about this subject.
The problem is, I think I would get the same end result no matter which one I buy: I'll use it enthusiastically for a time, and then once the novelty wears off I'll move on to something else. Although I think the novelty of having a digital camera will take longer to wear off than having a new vacuum cleaner. And certainly the vacuum cleaner is the more practical of the two. (Although not necessarily, either!)
The digital camera I want is the Nikon Coolpix 3200. There are some used ones for sale on Amazon.com right in my price range, and the reviews this little camera gets are nothing but positive. Last night I even got to pick one up and hold it in my hands when I was grocery shopping at Meijer. That, suffice to say, didn't exactly dampen my desire to get one *RIGHT EFFING NOW*!!!
But yet, something is holding me back from just going ahead and making the purchase. I don't know what it is. It's a lot of money... okay, it's not that much money. But anymore, purchases like this seem like such a commitment, and I no longer get the same thrill from making impulse purchases like I once used to.
Not that this is an 'impulse' purchase by a long shot. I have officially been wanting a digital camera for about oh, eight months now. There will be absolutely nothing remotely impulsive about this particular purchase at all.
I think it's just that I haven't had any money just sitting in the bank in such a long time, and I'm doing pretty well about paying off bills and such. I mean, it's not like I'm putting it on a credit card; I could pay for it in full right now.
But then the money will be gone. I guess I've gotten more conservative about stuff like this in my old age. I don't exactly *need* a digital camera. I just desperately want one, enough so that I've almost convinced myself it's a 'need', but it really isn't.
So I will wait. There is no harm in waiting, I know that. Goodness knows it couldn't possibly hurt me to exercise a little willpower.