Last night, I was so bad-ass, I single-handedly wrangled a half-hour newscast, 2 live updates, and a 2-minute recorded weather segment all. by. my. self. I honestly don't know how I did it. I was a one-woman, news-production storm. (That is to say, I led the crew to such exploits. I did NOT operate cameras, audio, chyron, or anything like that.) I got all but my last segment of scripts marked, and I managed to get through that segment cleanly. There were big giant valleys of question marks that I somehow navigated my crew through without much incident. (There were mistakes, but not due to my inability to lead the crew, let me just say that right now.) I guided our crew not just through a reasonably clean show but also a show that had some panache, some finesse to it. To the viewer sitting at home, why that was good TV! And I was the one calling the shots through it all. It's the kind of accomplishment that you want desperately to brag about, but are afraid to because you're afraid your boss will hear about it and expect such a performance every time you sit at the helm. No thanks, my life is stressful enough as it is!

But I was pretty badass, I must admit. :D I haven't watched the aircheck, but I can honestly say I kept up the pace of the show -- oh, I forgot to say all this was happening under breaking news brush fire business too. That was why the updates were live. And I was also the graphics department (although I ultimately dispatched one request to one of the other directors, but at least I had the wherewithal to do that).

Last night I truly turned a corner with that performance. I surpassed my own expectations. I love when I do that, it's so few and far between these days.

I needed that.

Got no desire to replicate that performance any time soon!