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I am so tired today. I decided to ride my bike/take the bus to work today. I can't ride my bike all the way to work because it's 10 miles, part of which entails taking one of the bridges over the Caloosahatchee. Maybe one day, once I build up some strength, but not now. I'm pretty sure I would be completely soaked, not to mention completely worthless after that bike ride, before I'm ready to undertake such ambitions!
I hate to admit it but the diet is taking it's toll. Now I'm not discouraged, and I'm not giving up my commitment - but I definitely need to give myself some more time to adjust to this new way of life. No matter how tired or wiped out I feel, the feeling of accomplishment and serenity at the end of the day eclipses any physical drawbacks.
Last night we had cheesy chicken alfredo for dinner (which may have more to do with how I'm feeling today than the vegan part of my diet). I felt guilty. I woke up this morning from a nightmare which involved me being on one of those hellish factory farms with some sickly cattle. I picked as much of the chicken out of my dinner (last night) as I could so it was just noodles and cheese sauce for me. I was simply too tired to prepare anything else by the time I got done making that.
But I'm not giving up. Sure that was a tiny setback, but for my lunch I made this little concoction of rice, chickpea and diced tomatoes and it was delicious! I just have to learn a new routine - then I'll be fine. I also need to seriously look into something new to satisfy my sweet tooth. I don't need meat substitutes - I'm fine with eating vegetables and rice and beans for my meals. But for my sweet tooth, I am GOING to find a chocolate substitute! I like fruit okay, but chocolate will be the hardest to give up. Nothing will substitute for that. Luckily that shouldn't be too hard.
I am ready for this week to be over with. Work has been a real challenge this week. I don't mind working hard, I don't even mind a little resistance. But sometimes it's just ridiculous. Like today for example: I was directing the 5:30 show which is arguably one of the easiest gigs we've got here. At least, it used to be. Now it's turned into this mythical beast that refuses to be tamed no matter what anyone does! For the second day in a row the swing package at the bottom of the show was compromised and the show ended 2 minutes early. It's not good when the 5:30 show ends early, especially not 2 whole entire minutes, because that means the 6:00 show will start early and all those high-priced commercials leading into the 6:00 show will air early and then it's just a big mess!
On top of that we had server issues - which is why my show ended early - in addition to all the other usual issues with the Very Important 6 O'Clock Show. The commercial spots leading into the 6pm show are incredibly expensive. They're expensive because of what time of day they air - the sponsors perceive the vast majority of their audience/potential customers to be sitting down to eat dinner, and since so many Americans tend to have the television on at that time, that becomes a very highly desired place to be seen by advertisers. So when those commercials DON'T air at that time ... heads roll. Needless to say, this is a bloody business because we are humans, we make mistakes, commercials don't air when they're supposed to.
I've run out of time. Blast.